I didn't believe all the people that told me I would want to try new things once I started to lose weight. After all isn't that admitting that I didn't do certain things because of my weight. OK, time to come clean with that. I definitely avoided certain activities because of my weight. YIKES! Not only am I realizing this and admitting to it...but I'm finding out that it's more than I even thought. Let's just start with sunny beaches and water. When your morbidly obese you avoid these locations. First, it's usually hot and secondly, bathing suits don't equal comfort levels. I avoided carnivals and fairs - didn't want to get put into a situation of having to admit that I didn't fit in any of the rides. At one point in my morbidly obese state I avoided movie theaters, they weren't comfortable and I felt like a giant sitting next to the friend I went with. Another place of distress - restaurants! Please do seat me in a booth - I won't fit! I can probably think of so many other things like these, but honestly I don't want to dwell on the negative.
When I started this journey I had a BMI of 61 - in case you didn't know this is the category of morbidly obese. Looking back, it didn't scare me - WHY, I do not know but it didn't. Now I think of it and it really scares me. I don't want to go back to that -EVER! Today my BMI is 40 - still considered obese but we get to drop that other awful word, "morbidly". So, as I continue my journey my next BMI category will be "overweight" - not necessarily a popular word, but given where I'm coming from...bring it on.
So, what kind of things do I want to do...
My list is not long, but it's a work in progress. Everyday I have a realization about this weight loss and along with it comes opportunities to dream. Here's my short list...
1) I want to walk/run the 10K in Astoria, Oregon in October 2011
2) I want to go hiking - where? I don't know, but I'll figure it out
3) I want to find someone to love and marry him
Happy Friday Everyone!
Friday, July 23, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
210 Days
Two-hundred ten days since I had my surgery (7 months). I can't believe time has passed so quickly. I've lost 118 pounds and I'm feeling great. This experience is like no other. It just can't be explained without writing a 5 page journal, which I'm not going to do. So, I haven't really blogged about this journey as much as I thought I would. I think that's maybe because I am so busy with just trying to keep up with all the rules and checking this and going to this doctor appointment and counting calories and did I get my water intake today and oh no, did I forget to take that last vitamin. Not to mention have I had enough protein today, are you going to the gym or are you walking in the park.....my list of things to do and consider each day is long. HOWEVER, it is getting easier.
Getting easier, let's talk about that for a moment. Sure I've always been one to thrive on structure and so having all these rules to follow each day is becoming routine - that's great, right? WRONG - with routine comes boredom and when I get bored I like to mix things up. Not good. It started in May - when I stopped going to the gym and started walking in the park. Not a bad thing, but my exercise went from 1 1/2 -2 hours to 1 hour and no strength training. Not a good thing. Losing weight this fast and excluding weight training from your exercise routine is a deadly combination. Can you say elephant skin? Along with this change came another - let's get more adventurous with food. YIKES - that may be the most frightening thing I could have done to myself. Why? Well, I'm finding out that I'm going to be one of those RYN patients that can tolerate just about anything. Yep, anything. Now that I know this - it becomes even more important for me to follow the rules. Eat protein first and if there is room left, add some vegetables and fruit. Lots harder to do when you know you can eat pizza and potato chips and pasta salad and the list goes on from there.
So, today I celebrate my 210 days knowing that I'm still a work in progress. I still battle my food demon everyday and that if I agree to allow myself a small indulgence once in a blue moon - all will continue as was started 7 months ago.
Getting easier, let's talk about that for a moment. Sure I've always been one to thrive on structure and so having all these rules to follow each day is becoming routine - that's great, right? WRONG - with routine comes boredom and when I get bored I like to mix things up. Not good. It started in May - when I stopped going to the gym and started walking in the park. Not a bad thing, but my exercise went from 1 1/2 -2 hours to 1 hour and no strength training. Not a good thing. Losing weight this fast and excluding weight training from your exercise routine is a deadly combination. Can you say elephant skin? Along with this change came another - let's get more adventurous with food. YIKES - that may be the most frightening thing I could have done to myself. Why? Well, I'm finding out that I'm going to be one of those RYN patients that can tolerate just about anything. Yep, anything. Now that I know this - it becomes even more important for me to follow the rules. Eat protein first and if there is room left, add some vegetables and fruit. Lots harder to do when you know you can eat pizza and potato chips and pasta salad and the list goes on from there.
So, today I celebrate my 210 days knowing that I'm still a work in progress. I still battle my food demon everyday and that if I agree to allow myself a small indulgence once in a blue moon - all will continue as was started 7 months ago.
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