I didn't believe all the people that told me I would want to try new things once I started to lose weight. After all isn't that admitting that I didn't do certain things because of my weight. OK, time to come clean with that. I definitely avoided certain activities because of my weight. YIKES! Not only am I realizing this and admitting to it...but I'm finding out that it's more than I even thought. Let's just start with sunny beaches and water. When your morbidly obese you avoid these locations. First, it's usually hot and secondly, bathing suits don't equal comfort levels. I avoided carnivals and fairs - didn't want to get put into a situation of having to admit that I didn't fit in any of the rides. At one point in my morbidly obese state I avoided movie theaters, they weren't comfortable and I felt like a giant sitting next to the friend I went with. Another place of distress - restaurants! Please do seat me in a booth - I won't fit! I can probably think of so many other things like these, but honestly I don't want to dwell on the negative.
When I started this journey I had a BMI of 61 - in case you didn't know this is the category of morbidly obese. Looking back, it didn't scare me - WHY, I do not know but it didn't. Now I think of it and it really scares me. I don't want to go back to that -EVER! Today my BMI is 40 - still considered obese but we get to drop that other awful word, "morbidly". So, as I continue my journey my next BMI category will be "overweight" - not necessarily a popular word, but given where I'm coming from...bring it on.
So, what kind of things do I want to do...
My list is not long, but it's a work in progress. Everyday I have a realization about this weight loss and along with it comes opportunities to dream. Here's my short list...
1) I want to walk/run the 10K in Astoria, Oregon in October 2011
2) I want to go hiking - where? I don't know, but I'll figure it out
3) I want to find someone to love and marry him
Happy Friday Everyone!
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