Still Struggling

So, it's been about a week since my last post. I have my appointment with a personal trainer, of course the gym is closed this week for maintenance, so next week I will meet with her. I have reviewed my 10 steps and I really do think I'm doing everything to the best of my ability. I'm a little sick of food right now. There really isn't anything that I care to fix and then have to eat for the week and half. Do you know how crappy that is. Sure I can make a smaller recipe of some things. Other things it just doesn't do you any good because you have a 1/2 a can of this or a 1/2 bag of that hanging around because you just cut the recipe in half, but you can't buy just what you need. Kinda like a double-edged sword.

However, tonight I'm making my version of a BLT. I have fresh garden tomatoes and I can't wait to sink my teeth into them. YUMMY! Maybe this will be the turning point on food. It just hasn't tasted good lately so I don't put a lot of effort into cooking. That's a mistake because then I eat things like canned chili and box mac and cheese. While those are good once in awhile, I don't think they are the best in terms of fat content and calories. Need to make sure these processed foods are not the staple of my diet.

I do enjoy having a garden and things are starting to come to life, other than the zucchini!!!! The corn is a bust - the wind knocked 1/2 of it down and the other half isn't looking much better. The beets have a lot of growing to do. Peppers are just starting to come on and the tomatoes are just staring to ripen. I've waited and waited and when those tomatoes start turning I will probably be pedaling tomatoes to anyone and everyone.

So, still working on the whole struggling thing. One day at a time. I just want to get through August. Bring on September and then maybe I can start having some control again of my destiny. Right now I've put myself on autopilot. I just need to get through a couple more rough weeks and then maybe I can start enjoying everything again.......

Keeping fingers crossed.